people

Recently I am so sick

that some nights I had sleepless nights

Do you think sick people tend to think too much?

lol

well

I was talking to my mum the other day

as usual we talked bout daily life

by sudden

I had so much complaint about people

I keep saying

"I dont like this person bla bla bla"

"I don like that person bla bla bla"

Mum said to me

"Why you always don't like people? Who do you like actually?"

After that night

I was asking myself the question

"Priscilla come on, tell me what you don like?"

i started to list out all sort of "Don't like"

and I asked myself again

"What do you like?"

I cant even give myself an answer

In your life

you have encounter so many ppl

and of course

some kind of ppl

are really not in your "like" list

but after all

they are still a normal simple person

You, me and them

we have different characteristics

of those character make us who we are

the one you know

I myself have been so linear to friends really

apart from I keep complaining I don like this person

I dont like that person

yet

I dont throw harsh words on them

No matter how much you don like a person

always do remember never say harsh word on them

even when you are angry/ not in the mood

Word

is the worst killer in the world

its so easy come out from you mouth

but its hard to ease away from ones heart

I was talking to a friend of mine not long ago

in a conversation

my friend said that I am a "....." person

(I do not know which adjective should I use lol)

anyway

somehow hurt me in a way

I assume my friend doesn't know that

and did not have the intension to say that

however

I din not blame my friend

Sometimes I think there are so much misunderstanding among human

When you said something which you know you don't mean that

but in another part ppl will think you mean it

but again

when you are seriously mean sth

ppl will try to ignore it

So who are you going to blame?

Blame me for being joking in a wrong time

or

blame you for taking it so serious?

No,

there isn't a definite answer isn't it?

after all I dont really care about what its all about

as long as the person don say sth harsh to me

We are not perfect

neither you or me!

But we can improve ourselves

by putting down our ego

and learn from others mistakes

Today

I actually very mad and disappointed on someone

well

this person at first already in my black list

but

I tried so hard to be nice

to make myself to like this person

so we can work in a harmony environment

*lol harmony*

even though with so much harsh words from the person

but today

no harsh word

but with attitude

I din't know a person can be that evil

and

EGO

I came home with full of undescribable feeling

I know its all past

I should have forget and forgive

I tried so hard to work on something to make something perfect

but somehow this person just RUINED everything I did

and I get the blame for NO REASON!